It's not healthy how the relationship between me and Aaron has became so unhappy. We've been arguing every week. We blamed each other and praised how much we have done for each other. I don't like it either. I know I always start arguments, but they are not unreasonable. I was just telling him what I want... Is that too greedy to want something...? And even if I don't get what I want, can I at least get some comfort for not getting it? I was to blame all the time.

We have to talk on msn all the time. Msn is definitely not a suitable tool for us to communicate with each other. He has interpreted my conversation into something else that I haven't even thought about. Sometimes when the conversation has reached to some point where we both can't compromise anymore, I only want a hug so that I can let out all my saddness. Just one hug... how can we do that with msn?... An emoticon is not what I need.